I read some where that bringing your past to the present will ruin your future! This is so true…Bad Divorce, Break ups, and even deeper Sexual Abuse must be ressolved before you can have a healthy & happy new relationship. Learn how to deal with the triggers. The things that take you back to those past thoughts and feelings. Example: In my past relationship my guy would talk down to me to make me feel less worthy so he could control me. Now when the new guy gives me constructive feedback to help me improve in something automatically I want to shut down or take offense. In my mind Im saying you son of a bitch you will not down talk me or control me. But then Reality kicks in this is not the sane man, his intent is not to hurt me in that way. I need to listen and make a decision if this is really good advice. See that was just one example but there are so many more like women who has been cheated on always think every man will do the same and so on. Sexual abused victims can get a little deeper and may require an entire post just for that…maybe this week I will go there but I will need a keyboard for that post!
But yeah we can not ruin our relationships with old baggage and past experiences. Just take a chance and fully let go and allow yourself an opportunity to be happy and most of all be loved.
Category Archives: LOVE
Damn Your Past!
The blame game is a lame game
I can sit here and tell you guys how my ex husband allowed his success to ruin our marriage. I was that girl who was with him when he was walking, that girl who bonded him out of jail, that girl who stayed with him when he only made 6.00 an hour and encouraged him to push forward until he was making 6 figures a year ( over 100,000). When he started making money women started running behind him like thirsty bitches do but he was not man enough to leave them hoes in the street. I was not willing to put up with a lot of bullshit so I dismissed his ass.He was making all that money but was lying about paying bills. I found myself with a 3-4 month mortgage past due in the end. It wasn’t just me and him we had 4 kids there. But in any case this was just the straw that broke the camel back… I was already debating and preparing for an escape route. I was tired of always being the one to work 2 jobs to get our bills caught up because he was never good at managing money and before he started making big money we didnt have any room for that. So there were alot of issues outside of the women. I am about my bills being paid and I was not going to allow him to neglect me & my kids while he run the streets and ball on his bill money. Fucking with my money his ass had to go!!! ( I will have to write how I prepared for my divorce for months before I asked him to leave)
So even though I sound like that ride or die bitch who did everything right…I didnt!
I had really became that model wife in the last few years of our marriage but prior to that when I was around 21-23 I got it in…I had an affair with a childhood friend. We had an off and on affair. I was Trina and he was my trick daddy. Lol… I called and he came. Being that I was a virgin when I got with my exhusband new dick was like hitting the lotto! And I kept creeping back for more every time my ex and I would fight. My lover taught me most of the tricks I know…where my hubby was busy trying to make love to me like I was fine glass that could be broken, my lover was fucking my brains out. Eventually I let that go because I didn’t want to hurt my hubby and well… I can’t share my entire life in one post but just know that… I also had became that wife who did not want to have sex all the time but that was short lived. We went through alot of ups and down…but when he started telling me he didn’t need me anymore because of the money he made I couldn’t handle it. Out of 17 years about 12 was like that perfect love story then we let others in and he could handle his success and thing went down hill from there…that’s why I always say keep folks out your relationship
Howdy Folks
Hmm, where should I start? Well I have had a busy week from Art Galleries, Book club meetings to Babyshowers and lots of things in between. My life has really changed. At damn near 35! My oldest daughter will be 18 this year
Yeah thats my first born baby right there and my youngest is now a teenager
So yeah, its time I live my life a little. I dont need a baby sitter anymore, just get up and go. So tell me why I am always home. Lol.
This weekend I was constantly on the go but I am about to start living my life for me so watch me grow into this carefree woman with no regrets. Putting your life on hold to raise your kids will not be me anymore. Im still going to be the best mother I know how to be but I need some excitement.
***this is my parenting post***
Question of the Day
Do Men fake orgasm or any pleasure during sex? I know women does this on s regular but just wondering about men. If so, why?
Trading Sex for Stability
Its been 3 months since I had a throbbing rock hard penis inside me. YEAH 3 MONTHS… see this what games get you, a lonely pussy. Well in the middle of my relationship I played lets wait til marriage game to speed the ring up. Ha…well I got the ring but lost the dick…good dick too. Now he is a church man so of course the bible play a role in this as well…but shit lets be honest even the Bible cant keep most men from some good juicy tight pussy, right?
So what is really going on???
Cheating is always an option, toys. Or leaving…but like a spoiled child throw
ing a tantrum I dont want no fucking rubber dick inside of me…I need the warmth of a real man inside of me and HELL NO LEAVING is out of the question…because
sheSerenity is finally comfortable financially in my oversize home provided by the Mister
…Now cheating might take another blog post…lol
Here’s What I’ve Been Thinking
I been offline for a minute. I had some real life issues to handle. Raising teenage girls can be more work than I ever imagined. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers because one of mine might get the brakes beat off her ass if she don’t tone down her “I’m almost grown ” attitude!
As for my love life it is what it is…shaking my head…
I broke my phone so I missed messages and lost contacts…it was pretty shitty sad for me. But other than that all has been well.
I had prepared to write about how I was all teary eyed at work today thinking about how my life has really changed and none of the events that has taken place in my life was expected. Good and bad… I’m so excited for the new beginnings though…
Oh still no wedding date set on my engagement and I’m not in a frinzy about it. I’m actually glad we are taking our time…funny how my patience has changed since I got the ring and the house…don’t judge me! Oh what the hell go ahead… I just don’t want to force anything…
Anyway…I’ll blog later…I’m hungry:-)
After Warning Comes Destruction
A young unmarried woman will only tell you so many times that she needs more before disaster happens. Either she will replace your ass or find a substitute to serve a supplement vitamin to keep your relationship alive! Basically someone else will be meeting her emotional needs and/or physical needs. Then Mister Clueless will say but we were happy! smh! No your ass was happy, I was fucking miserable but then a snake ass grin will appear and say but I am now…hmmm
Communication is the key, but a woman can only tell you so many times to get your shit together.
She Lives (mini update)
Update for my regular readers…
Love is on the fast lane! As soon as I decided to let it go…he cane back and proposed with my ring and the keys to my new home. My children and I have moved in. Me and my Fiance have decided that he will not move in until we are married. So I guess its true love never fails…
Everyone is adjusting to the change and its a change all around. More to come***
My First Time Sucking~
I was about 23 years old living the married life with kids. I had a group of coworkers that I seldom chatted with at work. There was this one chic lets call her Melissa who said she was the baddest at giving head. Well the men on the job confirmed her story they said this girl had a mouth on her that made them want to just bust thinking about how good she was. I was like WOW! Now, I am a pleaser by nature in the bedroom but I thought putting my precious lips around my husband penis had to be the most degrading thing ever. And God forbid he spit up (cum) in my mouth, gagging thoughts! But then she made the shit sound so good like a commercial for sucking dick. So I thought well maybe I should try it, maybe my husband would like it, maybe if I pushed all the nasty thoughts out of my head I could do it…I mean back then Black women was not big on this and the ones who did kept this a secret!
So one night I told my husband baby I want to try something tonight. His eyes widen like oh okay, shocked because at this point riding him or letting him hit it from the back was like a special treat. Poor man had to be bored to death-we had been sexing since I was 16! Anyways….He laid back and I had a wash cloth side the bed (smdh) I started with the soft kisses up and down his shaft then I remembered she said the head of his penis is the focus area so I wrapped my lips around it and walla suck suck like it was a pacifier. Then go figure Miss clean freak wiped the penis off every five seconds, hell I didn’t know that was a turn off.
At first he was all in to it then later he asked where did I get this from…my eyes looking disappointed as if I was a child being punished by her father. Then he said he doesn’t want me to do that to him, that he felt bad that his wife was doing that…bullshit! He just had not had it done right!
And like they all say practice makes perfect and only a failure is one who doesn’t try! Then I listen to my coworker and went back again but this time I left the wash cloth alone and made them damn toes curl…. Ahhh it wasn’t so bad after a good drink. And just like that I learn to slob on the knob and nope it wasn’t something I broadcasted yet I felt confident that I was becoming the freak that my man needed me to be! LOL
Love & Hip Hop Reviews by Serenityluv
Stevie J from Love & Hip Hop~ This man has made himself famous by being a pure player and asshole. Society says why blame him, blame the dumb as women riding his bus…Well he has some responsibility to be a better role model for his children for the young men who think this crap is cute. On the other hand you have to somewhat respect his game because he has put it out there and being honest with his women that basically he want his cake and have it served to him too…He said on one episode in a perfect world he could have both his baby mama Mimi and his Artist Joseline to get along and ride his bus together. Unfortunately, I think they will be riding that bus and smiling like the fools they are soon. Well by now they probably already are. At first I felt sorry for Mimi and held a level of respect for her because I felt like she kept it lady like and reacted like most women would when they find their man is cheating on them! I thought she was eliminating herself from the triangle but instead she is making pathetic excuses to stay.
Mimi excuse is that she is his baby mama and she wants to hold their family together. She wasn’t loved by her mother and she is trying to get that from this piece of shit, rat boy? WTH! Come on this is a lame excuse of a man is not going to love her like she deserve.
Let’s talk about this BITCH JOSELINE! Yeah I said this BITCH because this is what she wants to be known as which really piss me off. First of all this chic lacks class period! Yet, I get she is creating a bit of fame for herself to make money. Okay cool! But when you come to a talk show, she should show herself as being a respectful woman. Think about it Trina (the female rapper) made the song the Baddest Bitch, yet, when she made an appearance on any talk show she presented herself as an intelligent respectful woman. I don’t believe Joseline truly believe she is the baddest bitch off the set and I will tell you why. A woman who knows their worth and have high self-esteem will not feel they need to disrespect themselves to be liked or desired by men. Nor does a beautiful, sexy woman have to tell the world that she is…she let her appearance tell the story for her. So I think Joseline is a recovering stripper hoe chic who has low self-esteem who will swallow and goggle cum just to get in the lime light. The sad part of it all is that she don’t have to do all that to get to the top!
I agree with the people who says Joseline will turn Mimi out eventually. Joseline admits she wants Mimi and of course rat boy Stevie J will be pushing it to happen. They are both beautiful women with low self-esteem that is fighting for the number one spot so why wouldn’t it happen….
Despite the negativity on this show, I have to admit I love watching it! Most African-American women want to say they don’t like the show and that’s bullshit. I watch all types of television and it doesn’t define who I am so I won’t lie I love this show. Drama but yet this shit happens a day-to-day basis just like this…and to say the show is scripted, I don’t think so. However, if the show is scripted they did a good job because this is some real life shit that doesn’t just goes on with African-American couples but people from all races…more to come on Love & Hip Hop Reviews.
