I haven’t mention much about my personal life because I don’t know what the hell is going on. Last thing I mentioned was an engagement. BOOM! And the bomb blows up in my face. Ha! I wanted the ring so bad got it and lost it all in the same week (lol) Anyway, things are so ass backwards with him. And me being the spoil bratt I am who doesn’t like to give in to my own emotions have been forced to start planning another option for me. I am now feeling like maybe I should just stay single because I am not the typical woman and I just don’t settle for any old bullshit. I don’t have much patience either…so even though
we he have been buying furniture for what suppose to be our new home. I am looking at the calendar thinking shit, we have no date set, I have my own home and freedom right now and the single life is looking more enticing by the moment. Don’t get me wrong I want that marriage life again but not forced and not if it’s one-sided. A man can feed me all the sweet lines in the world but I only react off of their actions. So right now, I am not sure if I am just being impatient and spoiled or just getting cold feet. Honestly, I don’t know how Serenity will end up.
Needless to say things has been dragging out. Yet, I have remained very faithful. My work and kids keep me pretty occupied so I don’t get out often.