I haven’t mention much about my personal life because I don’t know what the hell is going on. Last thing I mentioned was an engagement. BOOM! And the bomb blows up in my face. Ha! I wanted the ring so bad got it and lost it all in the same week (lol) Anyway, things are so ass backwards with him. And me being the spoil bratt I am who doesn’t like to give in to my own emotions have been forced to start planning another option for me. I am now feeling like maybe I should just stay single because I am not the typical woman and I just don’t settle for any old bullshit. I don’t have much patience either…so even though we he have been buying furniture for what suppose to be our new home. I am looking at the calendar thinking shit, we have no date set, I have my own home and freedom right now and the single life is looking more enticing by the moment. Don’t get me wrong I want that marriage life again but not forced and not if it’s one-sided. A man can feed me all the sweet lines in the world but I only react off of their actions. So right now, I am not sure if I am just being impatient and spoiled or just getting cold feet. Honestly, I don’t know how Serenity will end up.
Needless to say things has been dragging out. Yet, I have remained very faithful. My work and kids keep me pretty occupied so I don’t get out often.
How peculiar.
August 9, 2012 at 7:46 am
I don’t mean to seem rude at all, and please don’t take offense to my following comment, but was this an IMVU engagement? If not, I know a few people like that, it’s a somewhat insecurity of being alone. You aren’t a spoilt brat, you’re just insecure of the single life, and there’s nothing to be ashamed in with that, just try out the single life, make a goal for yourself like: *stay single for 1 month. And stick to it, so you get over the little insecurity of being alone, it helps. :]
serenityluv1
August 9, 2012 at 8:08 am
Im not offended at all. No this is real life. IMVU is all fun for me but I dont date on there. I have been single for about 5 years and dating for about 3 of them. I think I have been single for too long actually. Lol
How peculiar.
August 9, 2012 at 8:12 am
Oh really! That’s lovely then, then all you have to do is wait, honestly. I know it sounds tiresome, but waiting always brings good things ^^ I waited, for 2 years, for the same guy. Things came through, and me and him are now stronger than ever. Patience is virtue. x
serenityluv1
August 9, 2012 at 8:43 am
Thank you. Yeah waiting is the hard part. I think I will party a little while I wait. Lol… Hey do you go on IMVU? just curious sense you mentioned it.
How peculiar.
August 9, 2012 at 8:45 am
Haha, yeah, partying is the remedy. I do, but I’m barely on nowadays.
Socialkenny
August 9, 2012 at 12:21 pm
No need to come off so polite with Serenity.She’s a big girl who isn’t opposed to taking criticism.That’s 1 thing I dig about her.
serenityluv1
August 9, 2012 at 12:54 pm
Another compliment in the same day!!! I think I just wet myself! Takes panties off! Lol
How peculiar.
August 9, 2012 at 7:33 pm
Okay, I’m a polite person anyway.
Nifti
August 9, 2012 at 10:32 am
I agree about trying to be more patient. Definitely don’t overreact or chase him down. Let time heal wounds and open doors. You never know.
Socialkenny
August 9, 2012 at 12:19 pm
I’m curious.Why the hell are you looking to marry when you just got divorced or something like that!!?
Serenity,I thought I taught you better than that boo!!!
Not quite sure how recent,but aren’t you a divorcee[don't mean to put you on blast]?
serenityluv1
August 9, 2012 at 12:53 pm
Yes you are right. I have been divorced about 5 years. Um, I have to answer that question myself. Shit I need to get my hoe on, since I never have… Lol! No but seriously I am thinking maybe being married is not for me.
Socialkenny
August 9, 2012 at 2:45 pm
Well what the hell are you doing contemplating re-marrying!?
I got a deep question,don’t divorcees ever learn a lesson to stay away from marriage?Or is marrying(re-marrying)an addiction?Seems so.I’m for real.
bossymoksie
August 9, 2012 at 12:48 pm
You should go by his actions, but how soon were you two supposed to get married? I thought you got engaged a month or two ago?? Did he take back the proposal, because I think that’s illegal. He shouldn’t have given you a ring if he wasn’t sure! That doesn’t make you a brat! You definitely shouldn’t force it or push it.
serenityluv1
August 9, 2012 at 12:58 pm
I feel like he pulled a Jimmy on me…put my ass on hold. We just here no date set but Im about show him how the game of like is really played. I love him & I know he love me but maybe he is scared…I cant play Dr. Phil tho….so watch me work
bossymoksie
August 9, 2012 at 1:09 pm
And you shouldn’t have to play Dr. Phil! lol. Do your thing, make yourself happy. He’ll notice and then it’s up to him what he wants to do with that!
trippadvice
August 9, 2012 at 2:55 pm
Agreed with this post.
The Reemachronicles
August 9, 2012 at 8:29 pm
Holy shit, I thought I was going to get a wedding invitation. Now that shit is off. I keep telling you that every woman must go through that attention whore stage. Since you got married at a young age, you haven’t experience that yet. You need to get that out of your system before you get married.
Socialkenny
August 9, 2012 at 8:34 pm
Yo Reema that’s powerful man!!!
Yo,I never thought about that before.
So in a sense,when you marry young,and never gotten the chance to be normal,be a slutty,take advantage of attention,you let it out later in life like after a divorce?
serenityluv1
August 9, 2012 at 8:46 pm
Um, I feel like I’m having a threesome now that I have you both at the same time. Ha! Let me stop being silly all the time but seriously
I really keep hearing this from fam & friends that I need to have a wild streak because I have really not had that moment. Deep sighs…
The Reemachronicles
August 10, 2012 at 12:12 pm
Yes Sir…men have to go through the same thing. People call it a mid-life crisis but its just the player stage
The Reemachronicles
August 10, 2012 at 12:14 pm
Yes, you should. You don;t want to be 40 in the club with a damn cat suit on!
serenityluv1
August 10, 2012 at 12:30 pm
Well if I still got it….shrugs! I might
serenityluv1
August 9, 2012 at 8:43 pm
Yeah you were going to be my best man, I meant his best man! Well you have to consider this, all my life I have had a man with me and now I’m alone. I miss that in house/companionship but it’s all good. I’m still rocking my diamonds….And stop telling me I need to get my whorism on! LOL! I keep hearing that shit in my ear every time another dude try to holla at me…
The Reemachronicles
August 9, 2012 at 8:29 pm
Also, what’s IMVU? Is that like a hookup blog?
serenityluv1
August 9, 2012 at 8:44 pm
Oh lord… you must have missed the blog on this when Kenny shut me down about it. It’s a virtual game/dating site. I don’t use it to hook up but many people do. You have a profile with avatars, homes, cars & etc. It’s clubs and all. It’s really fun. See my avatar? That’s from Imvu
Socialkenny
August 9, 2012 at 11:05 pm
Yea I had to rip you one for that childish IMV crap.
The Reemachronicles
August 10, 2012 at 12:13 pm
hahaha like Sims? Wow, Serenity
serenityluv1
August 10, 2012 at 12:30 pm
No its fun. I meet fun people there we chat. Its not a childish game really. Lol
mp11312
August 10, 2012 at 12:45 am
Serenity I can sympathize with you here. Being divorced you do get used to having someone around at home and there’s a lot of times where you truly miss that and want it back. Then there’s the times like you have now where you wonder if you want the headache of being tied down with someone and you’re wondering if they truly love you. You wonder if you’re doing the right thing. The best thing to do us to just take your tine and don’t rush to any conclusions.
If he’s been married before also he could be having the same questions you are. The thing I wouldn’t do is plan on living together if both of you aren’t sure of what you want.
serenityluv1
August 10, 2012 at 4:48 am
I hear ya! See when you have been there you can understand it better. But being Single and just dating might have to do.
bogspua
August 10, 2012 at 8:53 am
Its been only 1-2 month since you got the ring. He is most likely going to be as slow as he was with the ring in the first place. But still it’s been only month or two give it at least some 6 month before doing breaking it off.
Also agree with Kenny, you are young, have almost grown up kids, you have a chance to live your life and enjoy it any way you want it. wtf you want to have another person who will tell you how to live and how to be.
Take an example from me, I don’t even want to have a gf, let alone a wife LOL
Socialkenny
August 10, 2012 at 8:58 am
Well said Bogs.
serenityluv1
August 10, 2012 at 9:52 am
Its more to this but Im a little skeptical to put it all out here but very good advice from you as always. I can take some of what everyone has said actually.
serenityluv1
August 10, 2012 at 9:54 am
I am strongly considering just being free. And not getting into anymore relationships no time soon.
dollm
August 15, 2012 at 8:25 am
Some men are just slow *cough* my dad. My mum was way more dominant and their life progressed because of her. They have been married years n years and he is still slow about everything. It drives my mum up the wall but I think its just him laid back.
Maybe its just your guys character maybe you have to say are we looking at a winter or summer wedding?
serenityluv1
August 15, 2012 at 8:56 am
Wow! That is exactly right it is just his character but im afraid of mine. I might not be able to stand it. Lol. Glad to hear your parents are happy tho, gives me a thought.
offdadome
August 19, 2012 at 3:10 pm
wth I disappear for a few and all this shit happens? Anywho hope you get your fairytale boo boo
I was waitinf for my wedding invite just like Reema!
Socialkenny
August 19, 2012 at 3:12 pm
@Offdadome-Man problems got you not blogging?
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offdadome
August 19, 2012 at 3:14 pm
Nah, got myself a part-time job that’s killing me, hope ur well
Socialkenny
August 19, 2012 at 3:19 pm
Not as well as you
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offdadome
August 20, 2012 at 6:00 pm